Date: 2022-04-16 12:08 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (Living beyond your years)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
Why. It's a good question, a sound one. Honestly, it's a question that Jesper had been asking to come sooner, well before he had made his intents to permanently join the Dregs known. Kaz, in the times Jesper had taken to observing him beyond a glance, was not a man to take in others on a whim. He was even less likely to put himself out for someone on the streets--unless there was something to be gained, of course. Kaz Brekker had his reasons, whatever they may be, for every action and reaction he placed on the board.

So Jesper had his own selection of whys to ask, in the long scheme of things. And every one of them came back around to the boy on the other side of the desk.

Why me? Why save me? Why go out of your way--what made me stand out?

An endless, reverberating list of questions he's likely to never voice. Not unless Kaz forced his hand in one way or another. And goodness knows he's racked up more debt in the Crow Club's hall to give Kaz leverage if he wanted or needed it.

The question continues to hang, as Jesper considers how best to answer it. He fidgets, fingers tapping out a beat on his thigh as he looks around the office. He'd be better off dropping the thought, walking out the door and heading back up to the college. His father would want it that way. The problem with that idea was how much he hated it--not necessarily the offer of education and opportunity, but the stifling walls that held it firmly in strict rote and rule. That was part of the draw of the Dregs, the excitement of it. The unpredictability. The danger and andrenaline.

There was the protection that came with it too. The Dregs had a reputation, one that was building and becoming a threat on the streets of the Barrel and Ketterdam at large. There was a security in that, one that Jesper couldn't blink at. Between his well-known habit of building up debt quicker than he could make a kruge and his relatively unknown status as a Grisha, Jesper needed that promise of having some muscle on his side.

Then there was the matter of Kaz himself. Outside of wanting to know the whys surrounding their meeting, Kaz was a draw himself. A reason probably best kept to himself, once he got into it. Best not to think on it long as it was.

"Does it matter?" A non-answer, given with a shrug as he brings his attention back to Kaz. "I can be useful. We both know some of your bruisers don't know their way around a gun like I do."

Date: 2022-04-16 01:15 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (And what will you have left?)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
Jesper recognized his misstep before Kaz bothered to call him out on it. He had made a habit of trying to read Kaz. And while most of his ticks and tells were still a mystery, noticing his displeasure with an answer or an action had been far too easy to catch on to. Kaz's irritation and disappointment were the easiest of tells for someone like Jesper to pick up on.

And Jesper had stepped into it, fell for it like a sap. Idiot..

"Competent is one thing. Accurate on every count is another." There was being cocky, there was being arrogant--and then there was speaking with the air of confidence only Jesper could have. But there were those points about loyalty. And the jobs he's taken. Fair enough doubts to have, much as Jesper would loathe to admit it. "I wouldn't even call those jobs opportunistic loyalty. I had debts, I paid them with work." Until he couldn't. Until work wasn't enough when it came to what he owed and they wanted their pound of flesh too.

"You're about more than money, Brekker." Oh, Kaz could count the fat stacks and coin with the best of them, but Jesper could see something else at work. The other bosses in the barrel were content to sit back and let the money stroll in and have their men handle it. Kaz was in the thick of it--and no amount of Per Haskell claiming charge would make it less obvious that Kaz was the one running the show. And perhaps that's the biggest question--what made Kaz tick, and what made him need to be in the thick of it all? "If I'm putting my loyalty anywhere, it's going to be with someone that has more in the game than money and greed."

A beat, two, three. And then Jesper's easing back in his chair, settling in as if he belonged there. Amongst Kaz's people and plans and things.

"And it's Jesper. Not Mr. Fahey, thanks." He'd already misstepped once in this conversation, might as well have it out for all he can while he's still breathing.

Date: 2022-04-17 12:51 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (You'll drink yourself to death)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
"I never miss. Not unless I'm meant to, told to." And even then, his 'near-misses' still had their targets. A place to hit just right to send a message. The point is, Jesper's confident because he has every reason to be.

And fidgety as he may be, he's observant when a subject interests him enough. Kaz Brekker was plenty interesting on his own, even before you started to wade into rumor and legend--the those only serves to up the intrigue. When it came right down to it, Jesper made his claims because he paid attention where Kaz was concerned. Because past the sharp edges and threats there was something he couldn't quite look away from. And whatever nerve his observations made have hit, he knew he had Kaz's interest--or at least enough of it to keep him from being offed.

"I think I have enough room to make an observation." The grin he bore was sharp, that confidence turning the easy expression closer to a smirk than anything else. "If it was just money you were after, you leave the muscling up to the others and keep to running things from this high ground. Nah, you're after something more than that I think. Money's the bonus, right?"

If it was all about the scratch, he wouldn't even consider someone with the likes to run up debt the way Jesper has. He knows it. It's the only reason the mention of what he's owed, can owe, may owe in the future, has him wondering if he might fail at this after all. "Haven't run it up past what I can manage since--" Since Kaz saved his sorry ass and set him on a trajectory that landed him in this office in the first place. "It's not the debtors I'm worried about. I wouldn't expect the Dregs to pull me out of that kind of mess if I landed there again."

Date: 2022-04-17 01:20 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (Look who makes their own bed)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
Jesper almost laughs, because whatever Kaz has planned? He's certain he'll ace it. "Fine by me. I can take on whatever test you have planned."

The mention of the others, of how causally Kaz thinks of their loyalty, something easily flipped--which means there's no level of real trust there. No one Kaz would say he relies on is beyond that door. It's be sad if it wasn't clear to almost anyone that Kaz liked his walls up and defensible. "I don't throw loyalty around like that." A serious note, conviction. It's rare enough from Jesper that it means just a little more.

"Could be the start of change. Turning over a new leaf and all that." He grins, easy as anything. This is how Jesper drew everyone else in, with casual ease. "Point being, I've been keeping out of trouble--money trouble. And if I'm in it again, I'm not expecting a bail out just because I'm one of yours."

Date: 2022-04-17 11:51 pm (UTC)
triggerguard: (And Icarus' life has only just begun)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
"Hope," Jesper snorts. He may play at confidence in most everything, but his skills are the one thing where that confidence is sold, true, and earned. He was cocky because he knows he has reason to be. And Kaz would see that for himself. If nothing else would earn him a place in the ranks, he's certain that would do it. "You'll see for yourself tomorrow."

He doesn't miss that Kaz doesn't challenge him on his claims of loyalty. But he'd hazard a bet that it's more due to faith being something earned from him--something that was forged in blood and sweat, time and circumstance. His claims meant little without evidence. There'd be time enough for that once he was brought on.

"You're already considering it. Bringing me on." He leans forward, weight balanced with elbows on knees and a wide grin breaking across his features. "Next time--told you already, if there is one I'll be the one to handle it. That's a kind of debt I don't like repeating."

Date: 2022-04-18 12:33 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (Give me something to remember)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
Jesper snickers, if only because he caught the eye roll and he's certain that he's at the very least made some headway in gaining Kaz's favor. No matter how little he wants to admit it. "We'll see how long that road actually is."

And that's another note of confidence. "I think you're thinking about it. You like me more than you want to admit." He doesn't wait for the confirmation though, shifting to rise from the chair.

"If that's all, boss?"

Date: 2022-04-18 12:44 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (You feel it in your chest)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
"Whatever you say, boss." He's being a smartass and playing with his luck. But it's said with a grin and a salute before he slips out of the office.

Date: 2022-10-01 11:21 pm (UTC)
triggerguard: (Give me something to remember)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
Jesper has a surprisingly good read on Kaz and his habits, for someone that isn't fully initiated into the inner circle of The Dregs. But he's hardly surprised when several of his men are tasked with bringing him to the location rather than being brought up by Kaz himself.

The first glance he gets at the setup has him impressed, enough that it earns a raised eyebrow and a low, appreciative whistle. Anyone else would think Kaz insane, he's sure but this was the kind of challenge Jesper liked. There was no fun in trying something that looked possible--he preferred the impractical. It let him show off.

And wasn't that why they were here in the first place?

"All of this for me?" He replies with a grin, hands already itching to go for his guns and give this a run. "You really know how to make a guy feel special, Kaz."

Date: 2023-07-21 01:03 am (UTC)
triggerguard: (Look who's digging their own grave)
From: [personal profile] triggerguard
"Too much?" He parrots, following it up with a laugh. "Hardly, boss. I'm looking forward to this."

And as a show of it all, those guns are free and in Jesper's hands in a matter of seconds and not without a deliberate, elaborate twirl. A spin, two, three, in his hands before they settle properly and he's lining up a shot. It's one he doesn't take, not yet, not without Kaz's word to start, but it does let him feel what this arena of sorts is like--the energy, the lay of things--and what he can use to help him hit his targets in earnest.